maybe today is the day I write entry most. i love writing and relaxing, it's like take a dump but for brain and my heart—my sanity actually. blessed to be here with Allah's grace and mercy every single day for me and my family. keep us healthy and wealthy ya Allah, you are Arrazaq and Al-Fattah.
anyway, let's take a look on this one: it's crazy though because when you do start “finding who you are” most of the time you just go back to your childhood & realizing who you've always been.
my childhood is good. not that perfect but wholesome actually. a lot of friends growing together. reading books by the swimming pool bersama teman-teman. ahhh, bikin rumah pohon dan masak pisang goreng. main bp-bp bersama my girlfriends dan mengerjakan LKS by the lake bersama ayahku. i love all of them. with the technology too, I invite my friends home and playing games. dulu aku punya banyak mainan dan buku, digitally and physically never get bored. dikelilingi banyak teman, aktivitas fisik dan interaksi sosial membuatku bahagia dan itu mungkin ya membuatku menjadi ekstrover. all of my growing up itu kerjaannya belajar sambil main. not in the classroom but in the real life. sebenernya pas di pwt, aku kaya kembali ke masa kecil with a lot of people, good food, good run, good shop and belajar sambil bermain. but yeah, kala itu ditambah banyak masalah but I still grateful for those experiences. never been in my life aku bekerja keras, karena aku hambanya Allah dan di dunia ini tugasku belajar sambil bermain. embrace the feeling of joy, sorrow, tiredness. ya Allah, panjangkan umur orangtuaku dan orangtua teman-temanku, bahagiakan mereka semua, ya Allah.
You're changing all the little pieces one by one. On the surface, it seems like every day is the same. Yet, when you look at your life in detail, you'll find the magic in your rebirth. You're reading. You're watching videos. You're curious. You're putting things together in new ways. This year alone is proof that you can make fundamental changes to the core of who you are one shift at a time. The Universe is prepared to deliver in big ways, and you're finally in alignment with that. The year isn't over. Let's get it.
Every 5 years we are a different person than we were before. Part of the commitment to a spouse is to fall in love with that new person and GROW with that person through time. I'm guessing people don't do that anymore and just jump ship.
“You do not rise to the level of your goals. You fall to the level of your systems. Your goal is your desired outcome. Your system is the collection of daily habits that will get you there. This year, spend less time focusing on outcomes and more time focusing on the habits that precede the results.” – James Clear
a lot of married people I see is that mereka lebih baik ke teman daripada ke pasangan. i guess kebaikan pasangan yang harusnya jadi sesuatu yang disyukuri, malah sesuatu yang harus diekspektasikan. anyway... hm... yeah it's sucks. about friends, it just sucks. i love talking and meeting with people, but befriending them? I only have 3 person so far that checked my list about good enough friend. but we have separated way for now, because I also valued independence♥️
anyway, friends sucks and a lot of people are glamorizing the need of having friends. they do not know the cheat code in life. semua teman akan menjadi musuh, kecuali orang yang bertakwa. so ya, orang bertakwa satu sama lain akan selamat karena mereka berteman for the sake of Allah (hopefully, kita husnudzan saja). sisanya, akan berantakan. baik di dunia maupun di akhirat.
yk this era's tribulation is UNHINGED✨. when the religious one has 🌶️ spicier🌶️ twists than my jahiliyah™ era (silly me thought i was sinsmaxxxxxxxxing back then but this lady is another level)
I was dreaming of two husbands just in my imagination BUT THIS lady actualize the dream: MARRIED TO 3 HUSBANDS!!!🥵
sure thing this community has a lot to offer both sides and im enjoying 🍵 even more
moral of the story: pray pray pray &don't ever feel safe from the end time's trials and tribulations& DON'T UNDERESTIMATE one's capability.
but still. nyatanya aku tetep gasuka anime, gasuka lego, gasuka aci, gasuka tiktok, gasuka horoskop (dan emang gaboleh), gasuka banyak hal ya ternyata walaupun udah pernah kenal dan terjun. i still don't like it.
a beautiful life consists of patience and gratefulness.
detach. let it go. i already found and learned my lesson. to be an authentic person, you must let go of the 'false sense of urgency' to fulfill the expectations of every being. yes, the parents, boss, friends, even partners. we are who God makes us to be. let me tell you what my vision is and how Allah helped me and guided me through that.
i have an independent project to start, back with one big question in my mind “how i accomplish such x and x in a shorter time?” –> x can be a purposeful action, a feeling i wish to experience, a skill i wish to gain, a competency i aim to have, a thing i want to possess, or someone i want to reach out with, a society i want to belong in.
for starters, i feel like i am an outcast —but in a good way.
not too isolated but not too social too. but i declared myself as an extrovert since i gained my energy through socialization with people. but i've been changing my bandwagon —from the box one to another one. i choose science and master it... but it doesn't give me a sense of purpose combined with solitude. i choose homesteading and philosophy... they are kinda not buildable aspirations for my age and it's too heavy on me at such a young age. but i am still grateful to have a chance, and enough time to stick with those. they also built me, like a great building block that stacked my temple. and my last journey is in the path of salvation, to Allah and Sunnah. the followers of Sunnah are the strangers, so glad tidings to the strangers. this is one of the orbs that i already obtained and i will fight til i die to have this faith, integrity, and principle.
the second orb is knowledge. how i paved my way in knowledge. maybe it's another story for another day. i'm beyond blessed and i pray to Allah that Allah guide me to be grateful every single second.
you know you're OUT of dating market when the market FILLED with fugly (sorry) people that TRY SO HARD want to lay down and prove their lovey-dovey mumumu stuff. not my fight anymore, guys. i have commitment with حبيبي from country ——–.
lift weight, lock in, doing good deeds for the fams!🎀
stop idolizing. you can have respect for someone without lowering your status and without giving them your power. stop putting people, opportunities, and material items on a pedestal. you can doubt your work, but shouldn’t doubt yourself (the value of who you are as a human being outside of your work).
https://m.youtube.com/watch?v=P0KU9y7rgbw sis spitting facts and the way it resonates with me so much to the point I will keep quiet about my wealth (practically myself and my wealth are my dad's). but I HAVE A CONFESSION guys. i have the ability to spot on once-a-rich-family as my date(s) and been there, done the investment. I mean not a good ROI investment at that moment but I'm grateful to such experience a humbling period that maybe I cannot go through that myself. i met a good amount of people because of them, grateful for that too... but sadly, things need to have the end. not only because I've grown so much this year and back, but also I already get the pattern and path of my life. aku hanya butuh konsistensi, ditengah gempuran materialisme yang semakin banyak ini aku terekspos lebih dan lebih. I'm grateful for that too and I don't blame anything and anyone. this is my life and life happen for me. not to me, but for me. because I'm the active subject here receiving abundance and unlimited blessing from Allāh. ya Allah, keep us steady.