The simple fact is you can't start anew. The past will always be a part of your present and future, but the important thing is you have a real choice in what shape that part takes in your life. I think radically burning down everything connected to the past you wish to leave behind to somehow start with a clean slate might only bring hurt in the long run — you won't succeed, for one. If you want to be a different person from how you used to be, well, you already are, but you need to find a way to make peace with that past, because it will keep popping up throughout your life. You don't need to agree with your past self to find a way to embrace it. At the very least, as a stepping stone to who you are now (including all your dreams and aspirations), and who you will be in the future. If you choose to let that past be a place of hurt, it will keep hurting every time it pops back up again. So choose not to.
since the internet is one of my ‘kepanjangan tangan’ of my mortal existence, I think I want to write a book about digital divorce and how i have the contrarian idea of the paragraph above. mungkin nanti aku kaitkan sama online relationship, either it's friendship or romantic one. aku kaitkan juga sama self-identity, searching for truer words and building a legacy. because this test, this game is another level of difference than previous era. the game is always spiritual, but now, people are lacking of it. and it's disheartening to see such gloom in their eyes and prolonged sadness in their face. not to mention of hollow space in the heart, but i don't have the capability to diagnose that... so yeah i'll leave you into that.