dainty empress.☘︎ ݁˖

not doing witchcraft but i have a layered armor for protection from my Creator only.

timothy ronald. kebohongan sistem keuangan.

1) sistem finansial dan sistem sekolah = scam. 2) bikin semua orang menjadi budak, dirantai dengan uang oleh slave master. 3) uang gampang dibuat, di-print gampang. ditaruh di rekening hanya uang. conventional wisdom itu sesat. KPR 5 tahun bayar bunganya, 15 tahun bayar rumahnya. dapat kertas 1 lalu kertas 2. kalau pemerintah memutuskan untuk bikin taman umum, digusurlah kertas kita dibayar pakai kertas. 4) tidak ada orang kaya itu nabung. apalagi ambil kpr. satu-satunya cara biar kaya –> contrarian; curangin sistemnya. 5) TIDAK ADA INCOME PASIF, TIDAK ADA BISNIS AUTOPILOT. 6) apple, nvidia itu harus naik terus perquarter. bisnis itu banyak kompetisi. dengerin dan diem. belajar dengan orang yang lebih kaya. jangan bayar financial advisor sejuta/jam. 7) uang = kerja keras luar biasa. tidak banyak alasan, kerja keras. tidak berleha-leha. kerja keras itu bare minimum semua orang kaya. fokus dan disiplin. 8) pemalas, bodoh, arogan –> uang tidak akan pernah datang. jangan expect kalau lo ngerti tentang uang. 9) yang paling kasihan adalah kaum kelas menengah. 'tax the rich' –> di Inggris, pajaknya naikin untuk orang kaya. orang kaya paling sulit untuk dipajakin. kalau didatangi IRS di rumahnya, orang menengah ngga bisa mengelak. punya anak disitu, punya kucing. orang kaya itu ngga pernah ada di rumah. perusahaan bukan atas nama dia, sulit diapa-apain. yachtr di morocco, ada trust fund di cayman island lagi di swiss liburan gitu –> repot, lama. 10) rigged game –> saat ini. belajar tentang uang dan dunia. uang bisa diambil. mereka punya semua kuasa. hati-pikiranr-jiwa itu tidak bisa diambil. tidak bisa jadi orang biasa, harus jadi orang kaya. 2030 akan sulit. 11) cape-cape kerja, ternyata ada yang dapat cetak uang tanpa jaminan apapun. 12) keadaan job market di indonesia saat ini –> supply vs demand. supply –> jumlah loker, demand –> jumlah pelamar. 1:8. 5 tahun lalu 1:2 13) 2019 – 2024 cuma ada 2,77 juta lapangan kerja formal baru tercipta. 2009 – 2014 itu ada 15,62 juta pekerja diserap. 14) ini adalah premature deindustrialization. 15) bagaimana cara sebuah negara berkembang menjadi negara maju? ada 3 tahap. 1) agraris 2) manufaktur 3) penyedia jasa. amerika, korsel, dan cina itu begitu grafiknya. kenapa harus melewati runtutan itu? cina 60-70 –> dominasi agriculture. '78 – –> mao meninggal, manufaktur. the factory of the world. gaji naik, sdm mahal. pabrik di china kurang efektif. de-industrialization –> nilai ekonominya lebih tinggi, high specialization. nilai tawar tinggi. alibaba, bytedance harusnya, meningkatkan nilai ekonomi suatu negara. tapi malah di indonesia susah? ada kata 'premature' 16) turun terus bukan karena pilihan kita, tapi karena kita terpaksa. di era globalisasi, perusahaan manufaktur lokal tidak bisa bersaing dengan manufaktur asing. tekstil, bata, tutup. 17) industri manufaktur collapse > penciptaan lapangan kerja formal berkurang > tidak dapat kerja di sektor formal > lari ke sektor informal (low skill and low income) > masyarakat menengah turun kelas > turun ke menuju menengah dan miskin. 18) ada transfer teknologi dan knowledge. indonesia butuh banyak investor lokal dan asing. 19) ease of doing business rank indonesia di angka 73. lebih kecil dari vietnam, india, kenya, turkey. 20) regulasi hukum yang baik. 21) meritokrasi –> berpengalaman, niat baik, dan butuh eksekusi.

jangan cepat puas. apa lagi yang harus improve. fokus maksimalkan value.

josh raf gultom. – middle class akan tiada. adanya si miskin dan si kaya. tidak ada identitas, tidak punya barang. – kita hanya punya beberapa tahun lagi untuk berbenah diri. – the rise of ai and the downfall of workers. – teknologi apapun yang cukup canggih, tidak ada bedanya dengan sihir. kalau kita punya advanced, bisa disebut tuhan. – makhluk ini cuma 1, tapi bisa ngomong sama banyak orang sekaligus. adalah ai. – ai saat ini adalah bentuknya komputer sebesar ruangan saat dulu. ini baru permulaan. ai paling jelek itu hari ini. 5 tahun, 10 tahun lagi seperti apa. – perkembangan teknologi itu eksponensial. penemuan teknologi akan lebih mudah untuk dilakukan karena udah ada teknologi sebelumnya. – sebuah entitas yang tahu segalanya, tidak cape dan tidak bosan, tidak tidur. – uang akan terus diprint. hanya bisa koar-koar, dikasih subsidi, butuh rumah, bisa cape, bisa bosan. tidak perlu sekolah, makan, naik gaji, dipuji-puji, tidak perlu dimarahin dulu. – uang semakin susah dicari, UMR tidak sebanding dengan kenaikan komoditas. – the scam of traditional money uang yang dipakai saat ini –> sistem yang baru dibuat, belum ada 100 tahun dipakai. inflasi = tidak ada harganya lagi. uang itu dulu adalah voucher emas. emas itu dulu setara dengan uang kertas. – tidak ada yang ngecek ada emasnya apa engga di brankas bank. Presiden Nixon di '71 menghilangkan standardisasi emas dan uang kertas. – fiat system –> awalnya, banyak negara yang minta emas mereka balik. karena mereka bingung, kenapa dolar terus dicetak, padahal emas tidak secepat itu dibuatnya. emasnya gaada, dolar diputuskan berbasis utang negara dan polituk. semakin maju negara, semakin aman negaranya. – fiat dalam bahasa latin, “let it be done” udah percaya aja. – uang yang diprint dari angin. ilusi terhebat. uang fiat tidak ada harganya. – Henry Ford –> tidak memahami tentang sistem perbankan dan moneter. kalau paham, besok pagi ada revolusi. – sistem perbankan cadangan fraksional. fractional reserve banking. punya hak legal untuk memakai uang kita 93.5% 6.5 untuk di brankas. – bank is never run out of money. check the monopoly game rules for the bank. 13 desember 1965 redenominasi sudah menghilangkan 000.

ai masih bayi saat ini. masih ada waktu untuk mempelajari skills. hanya untuk mulai, baby steps bukan untuk pindah ke atas. 1) wajib b.inggris 2) wajib bisa AI 3) kerja segiat-giatnya. ganti fiat jadi aset. jangan pegang banyak fiat. aman jangka panjang paling pendek 2030. liquid. gedein kapital, invest di otak. cari pekerjaan bagus dan lebih banyak. supaya bisa naik ke atas. jangan ngutang. butuh uang cepet, gadai. bukan utang.

in 20s. make a solid foundation. make a good compounding skills –> skills, knowledge, invest in yourself have a bigger and better compounding than money is. focus on this. hot takes on leila hormozi –> 1) take their time on earth seriously. didn't fuck in the 20s. girls who don't take their time and self seriously become dependent and helpless woman. master yourself, make yourself an asset, you'll have dividen later. 2) fuck your mood, don't trust your gut. follow evidence. follow the plan. thoughts is not a fact. gut = lead to comfortable place. the cost of the dream you have for yourself tomorrow is a discomfort today. cringe/embarassment is the price you pay for self-mastery and expertise. if we base permanent decisions on temporary emotions, our lives end up nowhere. there's nothing wrong with feeling. what's wrong is when a feeling dictate your action, decision, plan, what you do in your life. make a decision that are good long term, not short term.

doing something that fucking terrifying. do you know the difference between gut and intuition? don't let society make you made a bad decision.

focus on your strength, not your weakness. leverage your weakness to people. RIASEC test= CEI – Conventional – Enterprising – Investigative. RIASEC Realistic 15; Investigative 22; Artistic 8; Social 15; Enterprising 29; Conventional 30

1) Conventional. People with Conventional interests like work that follows set procedures and routines. They prefer working with information and paying attention to details rather than working with ideas. They like:

Working with clear rules Following a strong leader 2) Enterprising. People with Enterprising interests like work that has to do with starting up and carrying out business projects. These people like taking action rather than thinking about things. They like:

Persuading and leading people Making decisions Taking risks for profits

3) Investigative. People with Investigative interests like work that has to do with ideas and thinking rather than physical activity or leading people. They like:

Searching for facts Figuring out problems

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CEI 3 33-9021.00 Private Detectives and Investigators Bright Outlook CIE 3 23-2011.00 Paralegals and Legal Assistants CEI 4 13-2011.00 Accountants and Auditors Bright Outlook CEI 4 13-2031.00 Budget Analysts CEI 4 13-1031.00 Claims Adjusters, Examiners, and Investigators CEI 4 13-1141.00 Compensation, Benefits, and Job Analysis Specialists Bright Outlook

ENTJ (Commander) – SWOT Analysis (based on 16personalities.com) Strengths (S)

Strategic Thinkers: ENTJs excel at seeing the big picture, developing long-term plans, and efficiently allocating resources. Decisive Leaders: Their confidence and strong will inspire others to follow their vision. They're comfortable taking charge and making decisions. Problem-Solvers: ENTJs enjoy tackling challenges and finding innovative solutions. Effective Communicators: They can clearly articulate their ideas and persuade others with well-reasoned arguments. Action-Oriented: ENTJs don't waste time; they gather information and then act decisively to achieve their goals. Weaknesses (W)

Impatient: Their fast-paced nature can be overwhelming for others, and they may struggle with those who hesitate. Overly Critical: ENTJs' focus on efficiency can lead them to be overly critical of others' work or ideas. Dominant: Their strong personalities can come across as insensitive or domineering, especially to more introverted types. Dismissive of Feelings: ENTJs prioritize logic and may struggle to understand or value the emotional needs of others. Difficulty Admitting Mistakes: Their confidence can make it hard for them to admit being wrong, hindering their ability to learn and grow. Opportunities (O)

Leadership Roles: ENTJs thrive in leadership positions where they can develop and implement strategic plans. Entrepreneurship: Their ambition and decisiveness make them well-suited for starting and running their own businesses. Consulting: Their problem-solving skills and strategic thinking can be valuable assets in consulting roles. Mentorship: ENTJs can use their experience and knowledge to guide and inspire others. Personal Growth: By focusing on emotional intelligence and appreciating diverse perspectives, ENTJs can strengthen their leadership skills and build stronger relationships. Threats (T)

Micromanagement: Their desire for control can lead to micromanaging, demotivating their team. Burnout: ENTJs' constant drive and relentless work ethic can lead to burnout if they don't prioritize self-care. Resistance to Change: Their focus on efficiency can make them resistant to necessary changes that disrupt their plans. Alienating Others: Their bluntness and critical nature may lead to them isolating themselves or creating conflict within teams. Lack of Teamwork: Their preference for taking charge can hinder their ability to collaborate effectively with others.

Activities that might be unsuitable for ENTJs in a teamwork setting include:

Open-ended discussions without a clear agenda or goal: ENTJs thrive on structure and efficiency. Open-ended discussions can feel chaotic and unproductive to them. Tasks that require meticulous attention to detail: While ENTJs are capable of detail-oriented work, they may find it tedious and prefer tasks that allow them to think strategically. Activities that involve prolonged brainstorming or idea generation: ENTJs often prefer to move quickly to action and may find brainstorming sessions unproductive or time-consuming. Situations where they are required to follow strict rules or procedures: ENTJs are often independent thinkers and may chafe at having to follow rigid guidelines. Teamwork activities that emphasize emotional expression or vulnerability: ENTJs may struggle to express their emotions openly or to be vulnerable in front of others.

Suitable Jobs for ENTJs ENTJs are natural leaders with a strong drive for success. They excel in roles that require strategic thinking, decision-making, and the ability to motivate others. Here are some suitable career paths:

Executive Leadership: CEOs, CFOs, and other top-level executives often have ENTJ personalities. Entrepreneurship: ENTJs are often drawn to entrepreneurship due to their ability to take risks, innovate, and build successful businesses. Law: Attorneys, judges, and prosecutors often have ENTJ personalities, as they require strong analytical skills, persuasive abilities, and a competitive spirit. Consulting: ENTJs can thrive in consulting roles, where they can use their strategic thinking and problem-solving skills to help clients achieve their goals. Management: ENTJs make excellent managers due to their ability to lead teams, delegate effectively, and drive results. Sales: ENTJs often excel in sales roles, as they are persuasive, confident, and goal-oriented. Military Leadership: ENTJs are often drawn to military leadership roles due to their strong sense of duty, discipline, and ability to make tough decisions.

Unsuitable Jobs for ENTJs While ENTJs are well-suited for many roles, there are some professions that may not be ideal for their personalities:

Social Work: Social work requires a high degree of empathy and patience, which may be challenging for ENTJs who tend to be more direct and task-oriented. Creative Arts: While ENTJs can be creative, they may struggle with the unstructured nature of creative fields like art, music, or writing. Customer Service: Customer service roles often require patience and the ability to handle difficult situations calmly. ENTJs may find these roles frustrating and demanding. Research: Research roles often require meticulous attention to detail and a willingness to work independently. ENTJs may prefer more fast-paced and collaborative roles. Academia: While ENTJs can be successful academics, they may find the bureaucratic nature of academia frustrating.

inspiration: saufiyah instagram, timothy ronald. gave it time to flourish; do not listen to the common-people chatter.

$86,400/day thoughts.

بسم الله الرحمن الرحيم قُلْ أَعُوذُ بِرَبِّ ٱلْفَلَقِ ١ مِن شَرِّ مَا خَلَقَ ٢ وَمِن شَرِّ غَاسِقٍ إِذَا وَقَبَ ٣ وَمِن شَرِّ ٱلنَّفَّـٰثَـٰتِ فِى ٱلْعُقَدِ ٤ وَمِ شَرِّ حَاسِدٍ إِذَا حَسَدَ ٥. بسم الله الرحمن الرحيم قُلْ أَعُوذُ بِرَبِّ ٱلنَّاسِ ١ مَلِكِ ٱلنَّاسِ ٢ إِلَـٰهِ ٱلنَّاسِ ٣ مِن شَرِّ ٱلْوَسْوَاسِ ٱلْخَنَّاسِ ٤ ٱلَّذِى يُوَسْوِسُ فِى صُدُورِ ٱلنَّاسِ ٥ مِنَ ٱلْجِنَّةِ وَٱلنَّاسِ ٦

terms of agreement. ▢ saat memulai, aku butuh tuntunan dari Allah. saat menjalankan, aku butuh ongoing support dari Allah. saat mendapatkan hasilnya, aku sandarkan semuanya karena kebesaran Allah. ▢ evergreen market ⇢ health, wealth, relationship and happiness. —speak with knowledge. ▢ evergreen, stackable skills ⇢ writing, speaking, marketing, sales. to build those with a firm foundation, you need ⇢ knowledge, experience, self confidence and persuasion.

my vision: ▢ i receive all the possible gifrts of fate from Allah as my birthright. ▢ everything is easy and works out by itself with the slightest effort. ingat cerita maryam, berdoa untuk dapat rezeki buah musim dingin saat sedang musim panas, etc. ingat cerita maryam saat hamil dan lelah berkepanjangan, beliau goyangkan pohon kurma dan makan ruthab. ▢ many people simply consider you lucky and extremely happy. some are hiddenly-or openly jealous of you. others try to get closer to find out the secret of extraordinary luck. keep it. protect it. ingat surah muawidatayn, al falaq dan an nas. ▢ circumstances and people ⇢ contribute to your success. sometimes it's just unknown—how and why—they start helping and opening doors for you, providing different opportunities. ▢ my weakness ⇢ i am tempted to start helping others and be generous beyond the limit. caution ⇢ i should not do this without an urgent need, since everyone has their own agenda/purpose in this life. ▢ if someone else get my goodness without effort and experience, they will most likely to be taken it for granted ⇢ i will be lost and my life become difficult. ▢ lessons and recommendations ⇢ do not forget to thank Allah, to provide such the surrounding people and life for what is given to me. i need to find balance and middle ground in everything. ▢ caution: i should NOT present my success ONLY as my own labour or mind. i need to REMEMBER about the help of Allah and mentally thank it, be grateful from time to time. ▢ way for opening up my personality ⇢ the key quality is softness. you look like a very easy-going. you are bright and open person, ready to shine the world—like the sun, because you have a lot of energy, which is enough for a large number of people.

common ground: you need to create material and tangible outcomes, bot in life and work. you can work in any field. ⇢ to achieve financial wellbeing, accumulate a specialty in the field of allocating resources/managing, create harmony and beauty (including everything related to fashion, image, appearance) or healing. possible to reach by helping other or charity. ⇢ to achieve financial stability, i need to go in my own way, create and choose only a unique—albeit difficult path. ⇢ maybe, i have the most income, not so much from professional traits—but mainly due to communication and skill of building relationship with partners, colleagues, and clients in the right way.

financial flow blocker possibilit(ies). 1. insincerity, condemnation, and gossip. 2. depreciation of my work, work for granted or for free, debts & loans. 3. useless activities (false settings and unnecessary circumstances when my hands and legs are tied up) 4. inability to refuse—dependence on other's opinion. 5. dependency 6. stagnation in development, indecision. 7. excessive spending; obsession with material goods. 8. fears, sadness, and worries about the future. i have the desire to live at someone else's expense. 9. conflicts with woman and avoidance to build partnerships with them. 10. gave too many pressure on people, rigidity.

strength(s): 1. conspirators: has the ability to influence people, their minds and actions significantly. there are a lot of organizational skills. 2. know how to appreciate every day of this wonderful life. they have a strong family, many good friends, and valuable connections. 3. children and employee ⇢ this individual may make people listen to the person and follow the will. 4. does not stay in one place and is always busy with self development. they are self-sufficient, endowed with a strong spirit and leadership qualities. 5. has the ability to do lot of things at the same time—to move forward continuously. they love taking care of everything aroung them, even when it comes to small things and striving to bring any task to an ideal. 6. there is possession of high spirituality. 7. able to achieve many things in life. the personality is very calm and rational, able to maintain balance in any situation.

In the previous life, you were a victim of some ritual and rite. You were just an innocent sacrifice made for the common good or according to tradition. Perhaps the soul was one of many others innocently destroyed to realise some great mission.

no WONDER I ENDED UP WITH THE MOST SIPHONING PERSON all my life. it's the envious longtime-bff, exes, family member. I WAS THEIR sacrifice. no, let me tell you some of it. bet it from friendship, romantic one, and family-business related. SOMEONE make me their sacrifice because I have those lights and innocent.

a good nap with good dream. aku sepertinya lagi grocery shopping bersama ayu, namun ternyata saat aku harus naik ke lift lantai 2, liftnya rusak. lalu, tbtb aku engaged with pasangan suami-istri yang kayanya seorang pebisnis. istrinya lagi hamil besar banget dan lagi momong bayi juga (imagine). suaminya pervert banget doing stuff publicly gitu. nah terus istrinya kan nunggu Abang yang maintenance lift datang mungkin ya, lalu aku diajak pergi sama suaminya naik mobil untuk doing his mango business. btw, aku ikut sama satu kroni dia cowo mungkin asistennya kaan. istrinya ngebolehin. di seluruh isi mimpinya, percakapan kita pakai bahasa inggris walaupun kita semua orang Indonesia.

doing business udah selesai kaan. lalu kita pergi lagi ke hotel besar, disana ada meeting lagi. terus as you expected, boss itu pesan satu kamar presidential suite. dia udah rebahan, sedangkan aku disitu lagi captivated sama indahnya sunset dan langit yg ngga pernah aku lihat sebelumnya. btw ini di Singapore yah...

bossnya nawarin untuk aku nginep disana bareng dia sekamar, bersama kroni juga. aku langsung kaget, sedikit ketakutan sih. aku nolak dan aku mau ke airport aja untuk pulang. mereka membolehkan aku. di lobby hotel, aku bertemu sama temanku, sevita. we exchange our number phone dan aku juga sembari jalan kaki ke airport, deket gituu. pas di perjalanan, aku ketemu sama landmark&tourist attractions, pusatnya komunitas arab. malam mulai gelap dan aku melihat kesana sebentar.

it just... aku disitu pakai miniskirt dan shirt dan aku pengen banget gabung tapi aku tidak pakai hijab dan niqab mmm...

not trying to be relatable yap or stuff but... my sweet pop culture girl crushes, Ariana Grande & Doja Cat has gone wrong at many levels. I already anticipated it befoooore their downfalls. this girlie girl decided to make her mind, organize her life, and be spiritual cutesy (I'm not having any association with shrooms, blunt, SSRIs, conspiracy theories—rawdogging the fact that I might have a slight chance to witness a collapse of capitalistic society). opted out from any form of celebrity culture and idolization. might be looking for everyday-person that often overlooked and embrace their beautiful art&story they present to social media.

anyywayy, aku tidak punya intensi untuk mempromosikan dating lifestyle atau membenci beberapa tipe orang, no. aku juga ga ngotot pendapatku benar 100%, aku hanya menyampaikan saja. saling memberi admonition walaupun diri sendiri juga punya masa lalu buruk, kesalahan, kelalaian, kekurangan, keterbatasan, dan bias (pikiran/perasaan) yang mungkin jumlahnya juga tidak terhingga, gabisa dihitung lagi.

bisa jadi mereka punya banyak sisi lain yg baik, bisa jadi ini privilege aku sekaligus test dari Allah untukku juga—biar gajadi orang sombong. sombong-> menolak kebenaran&meremehkan orang lain.

tidak ada manusia yang 100% bahagia&utuh di dunia. semua orang diuji dengan kebaikan maupun keburukan, nikmat atau musibah. penuh privilege&cushion diuji, penuh kekurangan & keterbatasan juga diuji. yang terpenting, semua pilihan dan keputusan punya konsekuensi, baik terlihat maupun tidak. bisa jadi kita belum dapat konsekuensi di dunia, tapi kita tidak bisa mengelak di dunia 2.0 (the hereafter).

سُبْحـانَكَ اللّهُـمَّ وَبِحَمدِك، أَشْهَـدُ أَنْ لا إِلهَ إِلاّ أَنْتَ أَسْتَغْفِرُكَ وَأَتوبُ إِلَـيْك

what I learned from previous romantic relationship(s) yg menghabiskan usiaku di remaja (13)—young adult (23) wkwkw lama juga 10th:

life is whether you win or you have lesson—&in my fields of expertise🤓☝🏻, 22nya selalu beriringan. there a set of rule of dating yg tida akan perna mampu dibawa jauh u. mengarungi naik-turun pernikahan walaupun dengan sebanyak apapun cinta, support, kebahagiaan&keserasian, dan lamanya durasi berpacaran—pernikahan itu beda (umum dulu ya, secara nilai spiritual kpn2).

secara umum, ekspektasi pasangan yg dating semakin tinggi tuntutannya & seringkali gamasuk akal (both genders, long-term, >4yrs). jujur, aku dulu dating buat seneng2an&belajar tipis2 tentang hidup domestik. tapii aku jg punya support system lain yg jadi cushion saat aku jatuh—jadi aku tetep bisa thriving & ga ngerepotin pasanganku. kembali lagi, 1 kesepakatan dariku di awal setiap me&my partner decided to be in one journey: “I'm not your therapist.” bahkan itu aku tulis di bio dating apps saat itu. mereka semua setuju&berkhianat jg akhirnya (wkwkwk maaf vulgar diksinya).

daaan ternyata setelah waktu berlalu, mulai keliatan mereka punya emotional baggage entah ttg aspirasi diri mereka; tujuan hidup mereka; kesalahan pengasuhan ortu; nilai spiritual; trust issues; self esteem issues; trauma(s). becanda2an mereka ke aku itu sama. dgn tona: “ih kamu mah bisa ya engage sama video essay/podcast/lectures di yt >1 jam tentang self dev,psikologi&refleksi. aku mah gabisa, malah ngantuk dan bosen.” tapi masalahnya mereka jg ga tambah ilmu dg media lain gitu loooo (gregetan). they just doomscroll with 9gag, tiktok and x bits of this and that ‘personality test/Spotify vibe’. kalau tida suka dengar, bisa u. baca buku, engaged in scientific discussion with other people, going to therapy, attending lecture dan menimba ilmu langsung-berguru; CARI mentor&komunitas; journaling; join stackable/beneficial club/classes; dsb-BANYAK HAL loh untuk upgrade kapasitas diri, udah dimudahkan bahkan bisa sambil rebahan aja (kalau ada keinginan, pasti ada jalan). we are in desperate need of third places outside work&home, nah disini peran pengembangan diri masuk.

benang merahnya –> when someone refused to learn&build a strong support system outside their partner, mereka akan merasakan kegelapan dan susah bahkan u. meraba, let alone menyelesaikan masalah di berbagai bidang. yg ada malah buka2 koper lama terus. frase bahasa Inggrisnya: regurgitating (love this phrase) & living in the past, memproyeksikan kelemahan diri mereka ke pasangannya (shift-blaming).

1 hal yg aku inget terus dari guruku: meraih kebahagiaan dunia itu butuh ilmu, meraih keselamatan & surga itu juga jalannya ilmu both of them need verifiable sources—walaupun tida mesti pakai pendekatan natural science & kombinasikan jg dgn empati. generate uang butuh ilmu, bayar pajak butuh ilmu, cari rumah butuh ilmu, budgeting gaji butuh ilmu, pertahankan hubungan butuh ilmu, regulasi emosi butuh ilmu, parenting butuh ilmu, bahkan menjawab pertanyaan alam kubur juga butuh ilmu & pengamalan. kebutuhan kita akan ilmu lebih mendesak, sama seperti kebutuhan kita akan udara untuk bernapas—daripada kebutuhan kita akan makan&minum.

intinyaa kalau kita berhenti belajar dan memilih u. ‘going with the flow’ sama aja itu mati. ikan yg going with the flow kan ikan yg uda mati—tida ada usaha u. berenang&melawan arus lagi. guruku jg bilang & aku baru ngeh: being an adult isn't an age-related game but insight-game. banyak orang yg tubuhnya menua, udah >40 tahun&bahkan punya anak tapi emotional regulationnya masih kaya anak 5 tahun suka tantrum dan ini BUANYAaaaaK BANGET.

dream log 5.49am

aku lagi liburan sama suamiku kaan, no kids yet (black gentleman hehe). sebenernya lagi off-roading, belajar pakai ford hehehehe seneeng banget. terus hubbyku lagi buka grup anak-anak smp sesat kaan (sembilan satu). terus hubbyku bilang, “sayang ini si amory sama kakaknya jual dua motornya. nawarin, kamu mau beli ngga?” aku bilang engga lah, kita lagi ngga butuh motor. terus hubbyku bilang lagi, “kasian ternyata udah yatim piatu, eh ternyata kakaknya juga udah meninggal. T^T” terus di grup dia bacakan obrolan kaan. eh ternyata hubbyku video call-an sama si agil, katanya mau bantu patungan buat takziyah. eh tapi ternyata agil bilang, “si amory gamau dibantu, kayanya udah agak gila juga deh. soalnya diajak ngomong udah ngga nyambung. dia mau pindah ke malaysia.” shooo randooom :>>>>>>