dainty empress.☘︎ ݁˖

not doing witchcraft but i have a layered armor for protection from my Creator only.

it really is disheartening when I do not have any mistake mentioned EXCEPT she regurgitating one mistake in the past that I already repented. akupun tidak judge dia karena masa lalunya, tapi present moment yang dia acted certain things, make a decision and you know, things have their own consequences and for me... aku tidak pernah menyeret masa lalu dan masalah yang udah kelar, tapi aku hanya membahas masalah in the present. but yeah, ada orang yang membuat keputusan based on feeling and their whims and I already know it along the way. I contacted dikcy years before June 2024. I mean, dia aja bisa berkhianat dan talking trash her bestfriend since highschool, who am I actually? anyway, aku support orang yang kukuh pendirian dan prinsipnya, entah dia mengejar dunia atau akhirat. we both win the game.

I already shed that skin and Allah bless me every single time with all the things I need and want. this is life anyway. I have bigger picture, mau ada orang yang nemenin apa engga, yang penting ada Allah dan doa kedua orangtuaku saja. Allah ngga pernah ngejudge dan selalu memaafkan seseorang apa yang terlintas dalam benaknya, perasaannya. tapi apa yang dilakukan. i do not take a further action on my feeling.

i just want to give Syifa a present in her 25th birthday this writing.

That was our problem.....she had things that she didn't heal from and it caused her to not do or be the person she said she was the idea of the person I thought I was falling in love with. And this isnt me dogging her on this. this is me stating it like this because we both agreed after countless marital counselings and arguements and repeating the cycle over and over again that was the one thing that kept coming up. and she couldn't let what happened to her in the past go and wasn't willing to seek the help when she needed to and (no matter what I did to help her I couldn't help her).

it is someone's story that going through 10 years of marriage and decide to divorce.

when you're a kid, everyone gives you attention when you're a teenager, people start developing expectations when you're in your 20s, everyone is invested in what you're doing and expecting you to succeed when you turn 30, it's a big deal and everyone has feelings about it when you turn 31, nobody cares anymore. you're just a regular adult going about your life. and that is a very liberating feeling.

such a cheat sheet

morning, 5.24am. monday in happy and flirtatious mood🥰

aku mimpi lagi datang ke sebuah turnamen adu keindahan (cantik/ganteng) dan kekuatan. jadi semua orang flexing kemampuannya. kayanya ya, aku itu punya kemampuan mecahin sesuatu, entah objek hidup atau bukan. lalu kalau objek hidup (misalkan harimau dan keledai di mimpiku), keduanya jadi bentuk balon dulu lalu pecah berisi darah. memang agak sadis, mungkin itu my primal tendencies. anyway, satu lagi adalah aku punya ghost spirit. dia ukuran kaya orang yang di film orphan itu, mirip kayanya dia deh emang. dia itu sifat aslinya sebenarnya immortal, tapi pernah dibunuh dan dicincang sama musuhku yang level kekuatannya lebih daripada aku. terus aku bangkitin si spirit itu, dari potongan daging dan lama banget emang untuk recover-nya tapi akhirnya bisa.

nah aku kan sebelum datang ke turnamen ini, aku sekamar sama salah satu laki-laki Asian kayanya. kita saling tertarik satu sama lain, and then the foreplay happen. the ghost tell me that dalam beberapa menit, dia bakal penetrasi ke pussyku dan disitu aku masih virgin, belum punya suami juga. sontak aku marah dan tampar dia namun dia tetap bersikukuh dan sakit banget rasanya dipenetrasi sampai aku nangis banget sih. ghost akhirnya bantu aku dengan cara repair my broken hymen lalu dia ubah kelamin aku jadi cowo. basically ada yang impersonate aku. aku kontrol dia, lalu aku ejek si Asian man itu. “youre such a gay!” sambil menampar dia lagi. dia sadar kalau dihadapannya itu adalah seseorang dengan penis, dia memasukkan penisnya ke hole. dia sadar dan jijik lalu menyudahi. aku sekalian aja jatuhin mental dia dengan cara menyebar beritanya di turnamen tersebut.

turnamen itu bisa dibilang memang tidak fair ya, namun aku suka dan itu memang mimpi aku. tidak fair adalah dalam artian cewe itu ada sedikit, dalam arti 1:3 kayanya sama cowo. lalu, masing-masing cewe bisa having affair dengan cowo atau cewe atau sekaligus! hehehe impian aku emang. anyway, aku akhirnya masuk ke turnamen tersebut dengan skill yang aku punya.

but boy... really a heaven I must say. as soon as I enter the place, I like everyone! some of them, seperti sudah familiar wajahnya dan mereka juga familiar denganku. maybe we were having sex in some space or maybe the doppelganger one. anyway, aku di-assign dalam satu kelompok isinya 9 laki-laki dan aku perempuan satu-satunya. we meet each other and get to know each other's life. hehehe disini aja aku udah manja lendot-lendotan sama mereka. it was my maximum capacity, I like powers and gentlemen that are flirting with me.

ada yang pemain basket lokal, ada yang seperti Nero, ada yang jacked super jacked, ada yang penyanyi Arab, ada yang saudagar kaya, masing-masing dengan kekuatannya sendiri-sendiri.

then I strolled around the neighborhood and boy oh boy. ada sepasang Lovebird yang sedang making love. the man was exceptionally built-in pump and the women has the complementary features too. aku mendekat kepada mereka, saling bertatapan dengan mereka. out of nowhere, the woman pull my hand and offering apakah aku mau bergabung atau tidak. kalau aku bisa deskripsikan, wanitanya sedang lay down di sebuah alas lalu prianya sedang penetrasi seperti 90° posisinya _| like that one. nah disitu, aku diarahkan untuk duduk di wajah wanitanya dan si lelakinya mendekat untuk bercumbu denganku. asli, rasanya di luar nalar sih. wanita itu mempersilakan aku untuk flirting dengan pasangannya, boy oh boy. sebenarnya aku bukan highlight di bagian lovemaking-nya, tapi flirtingnya itu. aku suka banget flirting kepada banyak orang honestly. I'm not lacking something, but it just my deepest nature and desire dan MUNGKIN aku di dunia ini punya misi untuk menekan godaan tersebut dan kembali kepada Allah dengan pencapaian yang baik.

i touched his torso with sculpted muscles. a full beard like I prefer. black man with some of white hair in the beard, tapi dia botak plontos hehehe. he said that after the tournament, dia mau ajak aku dinner bersama dan aku seneng banget. anyway, dia memberitahu aku bahwa di belakangnya, ada seseorang yang ingin bertemu aku. posisinya sudah dijelaskan gimana yah.

nih, tadi kan aku dimam pussynya sama wanita, lalu aku berhadapan sama prianya itu posisi setengah berdiri, lututku masih nekuk. karena ada pria lain yang menungguku di belakang pria satu ini, aku berdiri akhirnya, tida dimam lagi pussynya dan berarti posisi aku sama pria 1 itu wajah dia di depan tummyku. nah pria 2 itu yang menyambutku, mengelus dagu aku dan mencium pipiku dengan lembut. geli geli karena facial hair dia itu banyak, mirip banget sama Alex Hormozi by the way.

he said “do you like me, little girl?” UGH hati aku rasanya penuh dan mau explode.

An important point that this video misses is that Sustenance can be divided into two parts: Rizq Taalib is that sustenance which reaches a person without doing any work; like inheritance and gifts, which a person gets.

Rizq Mutlub is that sustenance, for which a person tries and strives hard to acquire it and if he does not work it will remain away

bruh, people are raging

Life is fun when I get a vacation. The dullest moments of my entire life are moments at work. I work in a factory and there are some mind numbingly boring tasks out there. Like sitting at an inspection table for hours on end.

mortgages make the banks money (they loan money they don't have). divorces make the lawyers money, children are future taxpayers.

Everything that they say is exciting fun adventurous is just another overpriced bore. They’ve worked on how to put things together to create a platform but never worked on the product. The good thing is the bore has been exposed and it’s worse then meaningless but it’s made to destroy our joy for living. So now that eyes are opening we’ll see where we’re going from here.

kata orang

“have you been more focused on manifesting that desire, or more focused on cultivating an internal serenity?”

In my younger years, I used to say having a girlfriend is like having a job. When you have a job, they're all over the place. And when you don't have a job, you can't find one. Same goes with the women.

😂😂 pengakuan seorang lelaki haha iya yah