https://m.youtube.com/watch?v=xajKmL3BhOE
I feel sorry for the past people, Syifa, Amory, Amanda, dsb yang betingkah irrational in my logical way of thinking and it's justifiable. now I know the knowledge based on the recent School of Life video, that not all the people have a complete and safe stages before reaching maturity. banyak dari mereka yang langsung loncat ke step being responsible this and that before know it fully rasanya di-adore for just being a human, sexual exploration, yadayadayada (check the video). truly, I feel sorry and I'm acknowledging myself privileged enough to have a complete and safe route before maturity dan menjawab semua permasalahan kenapa aku di tahunku ini (23 tahun) bisa menagih untuk komitmen, karena ya... stages aku semua sudah komplit dan aku sudah selesai dengan diriku sendiri. tinggal aku berkomitmen dengan pasangan, lalu berusaha terus untuk bisa bermanfaat bagi orang lain dan membuat legacy.
one of the comment that open my eyes ↓
Between abuse, neglect, and decades spent trapped in a deeply toxic environment that left me feeling like a monster all that time, I never had my childhood, adolescence, or even adulthood.
Now at 48 I'm struggling with the grief of a life that never was, while also facing trying to work back through all the steps that I missed- inasmuch as that it's possible for someone pushing 50.
No wonder I'm completely burnt out.