i get everything i want back in 2020 i gain more, i lost some... but at what cost? i still feeling empty and numb. i want all my peers' belonging. i get those too. and i have mercy to those who doubt. with all the achievements in materialism and other factors he has accomplished, i feel bad for him. he's unhappy and unfulfilled. he's what the book of Ecclesiastes concluded about 'chasing the wind...' Alex is intellectualizing everything and not letting go enough to just have faith as small as a mustard seed. He chased everything that was vanity and even in his own voice, he seems and sounds depressed.
I want to live off my dream. My dream? karya.