february, 10. 7.45 am. bekasi, rasanya rada cumen.
start here. i already reached my monthly goals in just less than one week. you need a balance between hard work and being in the flow, creative one. take the compound interest of your work. this is my 3rd times i attend to lecture of ustadzuna nudzul. Allah make me change through him.
learned by doing, not by theory. kamu punya mimpi, kamu punya orang (yang kamu kenal, tapi bukan keluarga). kalau kamu merasa, saat dengan orang tersebut, kamu itu berat dan selalu harus mengalah dan berkompromi, artinya jangan mimpi/tujuan kamu yang diganti, tapi ganti orang/lingkungannya. jika kamu tidak bisa berjualan, it's a skill issue. either a product, service, or yourself.
i read a good book by afutami and she cited some of Alain de Botton phrase, “Anyone who isn't embarrassed of who they were last year probably isn't learning enough.”
I feel first hand embarassment for almost all my 2024 moment. I can't keep myself on track of what identity i shaped before. I broke up with my long-time partner. I was failed to stick with the goal I had for myself. I cut off some people and... I lack of clarity for what I did. I keep counting what lacks in me, to the point where I pity myself in that season of life...
and now, i have the freedom. what was i fight for?