@LifeTheExperience 8 months ago (edited) I made too many mistakes and I lost her... forever. I then made even more mistakes that pushed her away. I sabotaged a 12-year relationship and although she's moved on, and I've 'moved on' from her as it's been almost 5 months, I am having a hard time forgiving myself. I realize if I do kill myself, the only ones I'm hurting are my family, while she may be sad, she'll move on as she has done. She's no longer her... and it was all my fault, i feel like i 'murdered' my wife. NEVER EVER LISTEN TO FAMILY MEMBERS OR FRIENDS. YOU AND HER ONLY.
speaking in her behalf as a woman with similar experience, good riddance for her. she moved on with her life, she has done and she's no longer her. because it is what it is. you already murdered her authentic self and now you gotta pay the price for hurting such a sweet soul. I hope you have those isolating feeling haunts you every night and have a nightmare and she'll have amazing sunflower-y days every single day and rose-y nights every single night. cheers♥️