a beautiful life consists of patience and gratefulness. detach. let it go. i already found and learned my lesson. to be an authentic person, you must let go of the 'false sense of urgency' to fulfill the expectations of every being. yes, the parents, boss, friends, even partners. we are who God makes us to be. let me tell you what my vision is and how Allah helped me and guided me through that.
i have an independent project to start, back with one big question in my mind “how i accomplish such x and x in a shorter time?” –> x can be a purposeful action, a feeling i wish to experience, a skill i wish to gain, a competency i aim to have, a thing i want to possess, or someone i want to reach out with, a society i want to belong in.
for starters, i feel like i am an outcast —but in a good way. not too isolated but not too social too. but i declared myself as an extrovert since i gained my energy through socialization with people. but i've been changing my bandwagon —from the box one to another one. i choose science and master it... but it doesn't give me a sense of purpose combined with solitude. i choose homesteading and philosophy... they are kinda not buildable aspirations for my age and it's too heavy on me at such a young age. but i am still grateful to have a chance, and enough time to stick with those. they also built me, like a great building block that stacked my temple. and my last journey is in the path of salvation, to Allah and Sunnah. the followers of Sunnah are the strangers, so glad tidings to the strangers. this is one of the orbs that i already obtained and i will fight til i die to have this faith, integrity, and principle.
the second orb is knowledge. how i paved my way in knowledge. maybe it's another story for another day. i'm beyond blessed and i pray to Allah that Allah guide me to be grateful every single second.